Apathy

A lack of inspiration
Farewell to the spark
No short of dedication
No lack of hell or heart
This facade, to mask what’s underneath
A broken soul defines my defeat
I thought you’d find me when I needed you most
I saw myself washed up just like before, but where were you?
You watched me dissipate
Until there was nothing left for me to save
I can’t believe it took so long for me to see
What was really happening
Did you think I would push myself towards the brink?
I think a new scenery is what I need
You’re always dragging me down
Pull the passion from my veins
Drain the color from my face
Remove me, won’t you remove me?
So why isn’t this enough for me?
Should I be ashamed to say I’ve been
Hiding from a disease that leaves me
Drowning in my own apathy?
I wait for a day
For this to be cast out of me
We avoid the inevitable
In favor of the unattainable
This emptiness that I’ve come to know
It pulls me apart, it drags me down
Pull the passion from my veins
Drain the color from my face
Remove me, won’t you remove me?
Stuck in this empty tunnel vision
Suffering through the consequences of my own indecision
I looked you in the eyes
Determined to survive
Searching for solace
I pulled myself out