The Suicidal Trance Lyrics

Fallen self-esteem.
Irritated frustrations.
Actions I wanted to live are meaningless.

Was I lunatic?
I was not crazy.
I did not want to hurt anything that annoyed me.

Pain, High anxiety, Disappointment, Depression
Isolation, Frustration, Disconsolation, Endless way

The world is falling down.
Useless consolations.
I just wanted to across the doom river.

I heard loud voice in my head urging over and over.
That night I had nothing planned and
there was just the pain.

Pain, High anxiety, Disappointment, Depression
Isolation, Frustration, Disconsolation, Endless way

I entered a cold tub slowly and carefully.
A sharp knife lay beside it.
I felt peaceful.

Before committing suicide, recall remaining the other side.

Why could not I feel, what a betrayal it would be?
This time I was numb the urgency pressed in upon me
and flushed every face, every voice, from my mind.
Under the dark surface, my body was invisible.

Pain, High anxiety, Disappointment, Depression
Isolation, Frustration, Disconsolation, Endless way

I believed that death was the only solution to end their suffering
and for no other reason.

I'm still waiting for the sun.
I can't overcome temptation of this blue dawn's sticky helpless.

At last. Too late.