An Explanation Lyrics

Why should I ever have to explain myself or my body or anything?
I know what I am. I know how it is. I just...
I just can't take the look on your face.
After I've said it, you said everything.
Without even speaking, you said everything.

I know what I am. I know how it is.
I just thought it would be different at the end.
It's not the end. It's not the end.
But I can't help it, it feels like it is.
You said everything. You said everything.

I guess I'm not upset, just disappointed that I expected anything
less from you. ‘Cause now I know that means
that I don't even see myself all that accurately.
And my broken sense of self is further fragmenting.

I think I know the answer, but I don't know the steps.
And I don't know the order.
I just know that I don't want to stay.
I don't want to stay.

I don't know if I can keep up.
I don't know if I can keep up with this.

Just hold my hand the whole way through this.