No One Should Read This Lyrics

Yikes!
No one should read this
But it must be said
I'm not a big man—no big thoughts—no reruns
I was kept like a sponge in a box, and a corner was split
That is what it's like to die
So I choked in a puddle of my pain until I soaked up all the red
Then, I traced the outer line
-Seduced to birth out a divide

So if you need a reason to hate, look up to me
And maybe someday, you'll find it
And if you need a reason to murder, look up to me
And maybe someday, I'll help you out, bitch

This elixir ought to be packed under a swamp in Cancun
And locked up—swallowed by a crocodile
Miles from civilization
I make shit [mix it up] up all the time
Like to levitate truth in my mind
Like to make you root against me
You can't trust the judgment
Of the simple-minded criminal that's me
Never meant to say it out loud...
Yikes!

But if you need a reason to hate, look up to me
And maybe someday, you'll find it
And if you need a reason to murder, look up to me
And maybe someday, I'll help you out
Maybe someday, you'll find the pitfall

Fell down a concrete staircase until she broke her spine
And some may call me a hero, but I've been jaded
‘Cause I know
Ever since then, I had been her pet
She don't think it be like that
But it do
And that's a cold fact
-Gelid, like a winter cheek
Well, things ain't what they used to be
She got gone
And that's something that I can't forgive
I can't forgive that
There is no compromise

No one should ever know just how tight it tugged