Catch 22 Lyrics

I'm still here, awake in this life
I'm breathing, barely breathing
No freedom and no autonomy
My whole life has been planned out for me it would seem

I've always felt like I was falling
Lost in a moment, suspended in time
With no comfort in memories, no warmth, no love around
Hope has been but a hollow sound, in constant search of solid ground
This dying place where nothing grows, I miss the life I used to know

I can't ignore the anguish inside of me
I can't break free from the darkness of everything
This life I lead, a fantasy, denying who I am meant to be No matter how much I search for peace, I find no solace and no release
I keep on falling and my torment doesn't cease

Lost inside this nauseating dream
I feel the waves suffocating me
Living a life of absurdity, no matter where I go
The truth still haunts me, dystopia is all around me

This life I lead, a fantasy, denying who I am meant to be
No matter how much I search for peace, I find no solace and no release
I keep on falling and my torment doesn't cease

(I know) There are no answers to this game
(I'm lost) still I search on and on again This existence is a riddle
And there's no exit (Life begins at the end of despair)
You said "All life is a memory and then it's nothing"
You said "Every existing thing is born without a reason
Prolongs itself out of weakness and dies by chance."
Ignorance doesn't change the truth
Ignorance won't change my worldview

This life I lead, a fantasy, denying who I am meant to be
No matter how much I search for peace, I find no solace and no release
I keep on falling and my torment doesn't cease

I know, I'm lost
Still I search on and on again
Life begins at the edge of my despair

This life I lead, a fantasy, denying who I am meant to be
No matter how much I search for peace, I find no solace and no release
I keep on falling and my torment doesn't cease
I'll reach out to the blackened world outside (world outside)
I'll find a way through these dark desolate nights (through these desolate nights)
To the edge of this world, to this edge of this world
I'll find a way to start this life again