My Shadow Self Lyrics

I'm done counting my own steps
Really care no more what I am to do next
You're so good, you never cry
And no matter how many times I lie
You cannot stop playing nice
For once
Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
We're fighting hard and nobody can make it through
You're being gracious, giving the best you have
But all I can give you back is my shadow self

Sticks and stones, we know the rhyme
Some won't ever solve my immaculate crime
Yet you struggle to reveal
What of this is true, which of me is real
And if you think this is nice
Think twice

Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
How could it be that nobody has made it through?
I break the mirrors, seeking the best I have
And they just keep on reflecting my shadow self

Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
We're fighting hard and nobody can make it through
You're being gracious, giving the best you have
But all I can give you back is my shadow self
Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
How could it be that nobody has made it through?
I break the mirrors, seeking the best I have
And they just keep on reflecting my shadow self