Spread Like a Plague Lyrics

Catching the moment, I am caught in my past
What I have followed and what I've swallowed were shells of non-existence
I am mortified by the fact that I gave nothing to contribute to the world that runs so fast
And I've been here wasting everything

[Featuring by Yul of End These Days]
You say I'm lost anyway
All these efforts have turned away from me
Existence is no more
I wasn't there, I was a loser after all
From my heart I confess I'm nothing more than a cherry picker
Exit from the lies, we're floundering in this pool of our own faults

Catching the freight train, bound for nowhere fast without confidence
Unnecessary burden
What have I done? What difference did I make?

Oh, my presence fades
I am here but ain't here, I see you but you're not there
There is no page to read
It doesn't matter, I'm carried to where the train goes

You say I'm lost anyway
All these efforts have turned away from me
Existence is no more
I wasn't there, I was a loser after all
From my heart I confess I'm nothing more than a cherry picker
Exit from the lies, we're floundering in this pool of our own faults

Will you tell me to give up?
Can I go back and try again?

Why did I have to go along this way?
Finally, can I be able to change?
How did I leave myself not to stay pure?
How can I undo mistakes from the past?