Chemical Counterpart Lyrics

Itʼs just a week and I could change my ways
Iʼve been taking these pills for all my days
But nothing changes if you canʼt take a leap of faith
Itʼs just a couple days, itʼs just a couple days
And I can hold myself accountable
But this chemical imbalance makes me vulnerable and Iʼm scared
So used to feeling cold that when the warmth hits itʼs too much to control but like I
said
Itʼs just a couple more days, clear head was a lie, too many thoughts in my brain
Overwhelmed but I still need to push on
Press repeat on that familiar song, it gives me hope it wonʼt be long
And that Iʼm not alone
No Iʼm not alone anymore
I got so used to the feeling of numb
That when my feelings rush in I wanna cry out to someone please
The pills are calling my name and if you tell me I should take ‘em Iʼll have someone
else to blame
Oh no Iʼm not gonna give up
Iʼm not gonna take ‘em
No Iʼm not gonna let myself down anymore
And itʼll take all thatʼs in me
Climb mountains and part the sea
Just to make it to the shore where Iʼll find
Some peace within my mind
Now itʼs only day two and I just want to sleep
My hands are shaking and I feel so weak I forgot what itʼs like to be this sober
How many hours till this week is over?
I lost my heart
To a chemical counterpart
Letʼs restart
Oh no Iʼm not gonna give up
Iʼm not gonna take ‘em
No Iʼm not gonna let myself down anymore
And itʼll take all thatʼs in me
Climb mountains and part the sea
Just to make it to the shore where Iʼll find
Some peace within my mind
Five days clean, I never thought it could have been
But Iʼm started to feel myself again, I know itʼs not the end but Iʼm proud
Of everything Iʼve felt, I wonʼt play the hand Iʼm dealt anymore
Iʼll pick myself up off the floor and move on, Iʼll hold on
Oh no Iʼm not gonna give up
Iʼm not gonna take ‘em
No Iʼm not gonna let myself down anymore
And itʼll take all thatʼs in me
Climb mountains and part the sea
Just to make it to the shore where Iʼll find
Some peace within my mind