If Only Lyrics

I saw him again
He looked well, was at peace
It'd been quite a while but I found him again

I said to him, “We thought you had died.”
“So, where have you been? We have so much to say.”

I have something to tell you
I think I understand you
I appreciate your struggles, your sacrifice
These did not go unnoticed

I sat with him
We caught up on the past
Then he said to me, “This is only a dream.”

But I have something to tell you
While we're here together
I am sorry that I blamed you or spoke poorly of you
I know that you gave everything you had

I can begin to see the adversity and the stack of odds you beat
I have begun to understand your pain, your pain

It just seemed so real
Though I knew it was a dream
As if time stood still
If only for one moment

Then I said, “I miss you.”
Then I turned and he was gone.

I looked up, he was gone
I woke up instantly
I woke up, he was gone

The tears came out of me
Emotions flowed uncontrollably and
It's strange even for me
But it helps me find the closure that I need

You were there for me
I'll be here for you
Even if only in my dreams
Even if only in my dreams
Even if only in my dreams