Abhorrent Subsistance Lyrics

Mutilations with a knife.
Shotgun by my side.
This bottle won't kill me fast enough.
Misery has taken over my mind.
Petrified with anguish.
Of a life of repulsed disease.
I live an abhorrent subsistance.
I put the gun in my mouth.
Pull the trigger, I'm not dead.
I can't believe what I have done.
I stagger around the room.
Look in the mirror so I can see.
I am not dead.
Mutilation with a knife.
Shotgun by my side.
This bottle won't kill me fast enough.
Misery has taken over my mind.
Petrified with anguish.
Of a life repulsed in disease.
I live an abhorrent subsistance.
I put the gun in my mouth.
Pull the trigger, I'm not dead.
I can't believe what I have done.
Fuck it.