In the Hour Before Your Death Lyrics

Home is where the heart is supposed to be
A cold reflection of failure and insecurity
You did your best to always make me feel like shit
Was I a footnote in your life?

Your world a cruel charade
I can't escape
Your heart was so devoid of love

In the hour before your death
Did you pray for anything?
Besides your selfish fucking soul
I will never forget those words unsaid

Despite attempts to escape your gaze
You sought me out just to play mind games
You drew dividing lines
A punching bag to pass the time
Those words like fists left wounds internally
And I'm still trying to fill those holes

I must forgive you if I'm ever to let go
Of this poison anchor that hangs around my throat
It's been years of loathing
I no longer want inside
I refuse to let this hate destroy my life
I must let you go

What kind of man would I've become?
If I had taken your advice
And never tried to make it out
Of the same traps that kept you blind
Always bitter and afraid on a fucking path to nowhere

Even on your death bed
I longed for it
Some kind of closure, a sense of regret?
But all I felt sitting there at your side
Was the space between us empty and wide
A life so filled with rage and spite

The hour is winding down with no reprieve
The darkness surrounding you dies with me
Release