Sordid Existence Lyrics

Primal reactions to adversity
Instantly nerve endings create this state
Mentally and physically decimated
Suffering, the agony, too much to take
Warped reminders of the past and the future
Cause anxiety beyond what I've ever felt
I did not summon this beast. It came for me
Is it due to sinfulness, or iniquity?
Is this trial for discipline, where have I failed?
Arduous existence, excessive pain
From one pit to the other, I am sinking
Horrified relatives watching this mess
Barbarous depression, dying slowly
Emptiness covers me, why should I survive?
Sordid hours of the night, enduring away
Vision, dreary and opaque, a symptom of fate
Cower in fear of death, strengthened again
Vital parts of my own being – disappearing
Convoluted entity – conscience searing
Boiling with anger then filled with grief
Sorrow unparalleled until the end
Grave misconceptions about my ways
Justice has failed me to my dismay
Sordid hours of the night, enduring away
Vision dreary and opaque, a symptom of fate
Cower in fear of death, strengthened again
Here I stand with scars unending
Melting through this sewer grating
This sordid existence fading
God in Heaven don't forsake me