Familiarity Creates Blood Lyrics

In the last times I carried you full of blood and tears over the threshold!
I grew sick at the thought of hurting you.
I have no memory of you lying there..
Your mouth was an open confession of my suffering.
Even in this moment of my restraint I saw only a black image.
I love you but I need something else.
My breathing slows and I become quiet, but deep inside, an urge ... I need this outbreak of violence ...
My fingers become a fist, and I want to devour someone.
I have it all under control ...I don't need any help.

One door closes, and the lock will not open.
From now on there will be no stopping it anymore ...
My mind switched off, I become a shadow of myself.
Regardless, I will let out all my frustration, hatred, discontent on you.
Crying cannot help you, I grab you by the throat and wring your beautiful neck.
The air only comes through a thin slit in your lips.
Veins burst in your eyes, and I look so deep inside of you that I see nothing familiar.
Everything goes blank ...
I let you fall to the ground, unconscious, and I can still see your disbelief at the first touch.
It is I who should be lying there ... I no longer sense your heartbeat ...
There is no hour glass that I could turn back.
For me, there is no here and now without you.
Like a phoenix, with redeeming flames, I let us rise again in eternity ...
Let us forget everything, forgive me ... I'm a murderer.