Reflection of Past Hostilities Lyrics

Riding down a dark south Florida highway
A time in which I should be on cloud nine
My mind consumed by memories of how I buried my emotions
I was filled with hate
I was plagued by suffering
I wanted to kill
And I wanted to die
How could I have been so numb?
The tears flow from my eyes
Emotions buried beneath past hatred
That still tries to ruin my life
Fleeing the dark
Embracing the light
Leave me be demons of hate
I'll conquer this disease, it's not too late
Running from my past
It seems I'm not that fast
Staring out the window into the night
Into the sky, feeling emotion, I cry
Choking up as I dwell on the magnitude of your love
An undying light in the strife of a life so painful and rough
I feel your presence comfort me in the tears of my depression
Washing away the spite I feel, in these dreadful lows
Thoughts of murder and hatred so severe
Help me rid myself of that for good
Tears roll down my eyes reflecting on the pain
Lord help me learn to mourn and love
I have not lost hope and I never will
I will strap up armor and bear a sword to defeat my former self