Disciple in Bereavement Lyrics

This isolation has left me with ice in my chest. I can’t live nor die, dragging on and on, wishing I was carrion. Theft of what I once was, extinction of reason. Sleep deprived. Poisonous air escapes from my decomposing mouth. Wasting away of my own decree, coward hiding from humanity. Outside I shield my eyes from life, for behind them lies the origin of reprise. Mutilate myself, embrace the filth. Wallowing in garbage, festering emotions and disgrace. Ingestion of the pleasures, quick fixes for the pain. The surging in my infected head eradicates the sane. Convulsing on the floor, why won’t this fucking end? Tell me what will stop this headfirst plunge into oblivion! I’ve been cold to the touch of others and of my own. My head became a shell, release me from this hell… Despising every moment, wretched bile burns. Overheating, sweat is dripping as my stomach turns. Ferocious this beast, clawing at my ribs. Is this my fate or a gift? Dragging on and on, dead life (with) no end, plague is what I am. Loneliness is not a friend, dragging, forever damned. Dragging on and on, dead life (with) no end. Plague it what I am, loneliness is not a friend, dragging on and on, dead life (with) no end. Flies upon my eyes. View fixed on nothing. Anything but this… Why can’t I die? Why can’t I die!? Dragging on and on, dead life (with) no end. Plague it what I am, loneliness is not a friend. Dragging on and on, dead like (with) no end, Plague is what I am, forever damned. I shut my mouth and die inside. This is my life, this is my death. Another fucking waste of breath, I refuse to take another step. Shut my mouth and close my eyes, put on my false disguise. No progress, no mind space for rent. I’ve become another Disciple In Bereavement.