Commercialized Debauchery

Devouring spirit and soul
Giving up all control
All sound judgement must go
You are mine now

Puppets of Al-Khul
Made out to be a fool
No need to heed the rules
Self destruction

Homosexually molested at the age of 12
And this made the essence of my life a living Hell
Deep self hatred brewed within the veins of my cell
Sincerely desiring to kill myself

Crippling depression had become my greatest friend
My spirit and hope crushed beneath the weight of sin
I sought new medicine making horror commence
I locked the prison gate of my hollow skin

Leave me alone and let me drown
Leave me alone and let me drown
Isolated within my own sorrow
I could care less about my tomorrow

Aimlessly wandering through the halls of intoxication
Seeking to numb the pain of condemnation
Slowly ripping open my wounds of self affliction
Begging to crawl from the liquid tomb of my addiction

All consuming Inferno of unholy wrath
Devouring completely all life in my path
Mercilessly eaten alive by the past
Violently shattering my mind like glass

Agonizing shame stabbed me straight through the heart
Pain forced me to hide in the dark
I cried out, will some relief start
I must be damned and fallen too far

Sliding in communion with the cancer of the Earth
Joining the confusion of the prodigals from birth
Bars full of the lost ones with no self worth
Swept away in the current of descending flesh curse

Millions seeking true identity in their pain
Blindly I will follow the masses to early graves
Eat away at my judgement to partake in lawlessness
Accept the ruin and surrender to the wickedness

Drop by drop, demons pour in
Dying by thirst of ice cold idols
Brick by brick, temples torn down
Knock back another fresh shot of death

My eyes fixated on vanity as I drown!
The depths of my soul in poison daily!
With no wavering I consume my devastation!
Ravenously until I black out in depravity!

Contemplating my own murder
I decided to go further
End it all 'cuz I deserve it
Gaping wounds love can't preserve them
Nothing left but to surrender
To Hell and graves true ascender
In an instant I repented
Given life through divine embers
My sins and shame not remembered
Ripped from the grip of tormentor
I was shielded by defender
Welcomed home by my deliverer