Weltschmerz/Declining Deliverance Lyrics

WELTSCHMERZ
Music by Jouni Koskela (August 2013)
Lyrics by Jouni Koskela (September 2013)

To understand the concept of love
and all that it means to oneself
Takes a contrast to the outside world
and what the others have defined

I can never be the person you need
But I can try to make it worthwhile
And it will be as genuine as it gets

All in all there is no right or wrong
Nor a compass to dictate my direction
In this maze of impulses, volition prevails
while discarding paths to redemption

I can never be the person you need
But I can try to make it worthwhile
And it will be as genuine as it gets
Because I know of nothing else

I'll try my very best to adapt to your needs
even though there is no reward to this toil
Please give me all the keys to rediscover such integrity
for the sake of overcoming this mortal coil


DECLINING DELIVERANCE
Music by Jouni Koskela (May 2002)
Lyrics by Jouni Koskela (August 2013)

I've come aware of the flaws I see in me
And I can't blame if overlooking them was a difficulty
But no matter what you might believe - I can't get through to you

Being beaten out of empathy
I can't reciprocate such intensity
But I cannot take the extent of your suffering
For me the only way is to let it go

I am now blinded by a stampede of these bleak emotions
that 'll torture the core of my being indefinitely
But no matter what you might believe - I can't get it through to you

Being beaten out of empathy
I can't reciprocate such intensity
But I cannot take the extent of your suffering
For me the only way is to let it go

But I am so ashamed I reject all possibilities - to balance the universe
Decline my deliverance at the face of my failure - I have earned nothing