Samuraiah Carey Lyrics

There's a chemical in my head that was there once but now it's dead
Confused perception, defunct emotion, a pained expression
Hurt to feel so I declined
Never meant to be so unkind
Hiding from the shadows existing within my mind

Someone asked me if I was content with the way things were in my world
Don't you want to taste forever?
Hold life in the palm of your hand?
Don't worry about the hearts you'll break
The dreams you'll throw away
You'll have brothers in sorrow
You might as well die today
Why wait for tomorrow?

Following in the steps of beaten down broken men
Wading through the consequence of problems I've created for myself
I'm lost
I'm lost
Searching for the person I was before I forgot what it meant to be in control
Of myself
And not of everything else around me
It's time to let go
Time to free myself from these chains

No more relying on empty promises built on torment
By others more crippled than myself
No more lowering myself
To the level of the walking dead
I'll claw my way out if I have to on hands and knees
To remember what life was like when I used to be me
And not a shell stuck in a haze
A clarity worth more than gold
This time I won't throw that away

And my future lasted longer than the devil told me it would
The structure of the life I've neglected comes crumbling down
I'm left with the ashes and rubble and now I have to start from nothing again
Maybe I'll get it right this time
I'll figure out what I've been missing