Last Cell Lyrics

To my daughter I'll leave behind,
I can't stop what's metastasized.
You're the light in my decline.
You're the one thing I've done right.

All my days have become numbered
And I have become numb to it.
Spite flooded veins, paranoid the pulse has lost me.
My purpose has become nil. My cells multiply against my will.

I'm sorry I won't be there
For your first steps, when you're falling,
'Til you walk down the aisle
Standing tall in a white dress.
I know life isn't fair.
When it's time and heaven's calling,
We leave love behind.
You were my reason to fight.

My reason to fight.

If this body is a temple
Then my walls were built on sand.
There's cracks in all my windows.
The foundation is condemned
But it's weathered many storms.
I can't take one more.

I never thought this would all end at 29.
There's a conflict in my soul; a system failure of my life.
No, I'll never get enough and you should never watch me die but that's just how this one goes.
Think of me and close your eyes. I'm sorry for the things I couldn't help:
For all the times you'll walk through hell, for the cancer tearing my spirit out, when your world comes crashing down.
I'm sorry for this fleeting farewell.
Despite all the fear I felt, I loved you down to every last cell.
Don't let your light run into the shadows.