Depression Heap Lyrics

I'm sitting here stranded on my depression heap
My enemies are the only friends that I still keep
The world keeps spinnin' 'round as I decay
Why must I live in such a pitiful way?

Time goes along & it drags me down
You people don't know what life is all about
Misery & woe keep tormenting me
They blind my eyes to any empathy
Stranded here lonely on my depression heap
The voice in my brain makes my eyes start to weep
Isn't it obvious? Isn't it real?
Isn't my pain something I really feel?
Life is confusing & consuming me whole
It only ensues the blues in my hollow soul
Obscured by a rolling tide of fog
I curse every name of every fucking god
Why must I draw breath into my lungs?
This joyless life has only just begun

Everybody's sayin' have a wonderful day & I say to myself, ' I'm feelin' fine!'
The world's still spinnin' so avoid confrontation - don't say something totally out of line
Don't mean what you say or say what you feel, even if the blood pouring out is real - but I'm dying. I'm crying.
Something's got an evil hold on me, and I force a grin & a wink & I say
I'm happy, so happy
The world ain't gotta know I ain't right - little do they know while they sleep at night I'm dying, I'm breaking down.
I've got to get a hold of myself, before I reside in an urn on the shelf
I'm Alive.

I'm standing in the distance of my depression heap
But the weed & the whiskey lay my bones to sleep
I've been through the hell that dwells within my mind
Now I must live so don't you waste my fucking time