My Last Thoughts Lyrics

I can’t help thinking about my fate
no matter how sad it may be.
Because from now on,
my destiny doesn’t belong to me any longer.
It probably lays in the hands of others.
But who ?

What have I done to deserve the worst ever things ?
Deep inside I know but I don’t wanna be sure.
It’s true I have sinned.
But who has never trespassed upon holy laws ?

I wish I had not done it, but it’s too late to regret.
I shall have to pay for my mistakes.
So then, who can claim to judge me ?
God ?
I can’t believe it !
Because if really does exist,
he is as guilty as I am.

What will happen after my stay on earth ?
A new life ?
Heaven ? Hell ? Purgatory ?

Nothing ?
I have believed in it all my life.
But now, I don’t wanna believe any longer.
Why ?
Maybe because it can’t all end like this ?

No !
I don’t wanna die now.
But then what will become of me ?
My soul, my flesh… will I still be the same ?
I might know it one day,
once gone beyond the limit,
if it does really exist.