Borderline Lyrics

How can I feel the plague where it's sane, safe and sound?
How can I see the black in someone whose full of light?
Why can't I help myself from thinking you're a lie?
As soon as I close my eyes, it's eating me alive
Consuming my beliefs, creating an insight
In which I see I'm blind but these are only walls
On which I'm trying to find a false proof to make you fall
This can't be happening, my mind plays tricks on me
I need to find a cure to become who I was, formerly

Please keep me from breaking everything I touch because I see the unseen
Help me to find a cure to this disease, keep me from destroying all I have

You're everything I have
So please take me back to that time
When there were no ghost and no monsters
No skeletons in the closet
I've been dead for so long
Forgetting what love really means
I even forgot my name

Paranoia has taken over me
Can't trust anyone, not even me
I once was told that the first step to recovery
Is to be aware of my own disease

When my eyes are closed,
I tend to connect the dots
And light up a fire to watch it burn
I can't fear death because
I've seen it through my whole life
I'm an unsolved puzzle
Constantly broken down
In millions of pieces

Now I need you to tell me
are you the cure or the poison?
Or is it just me?