YERRRNIN Lyrics

I wonder what life looks like without fear clouding my eyes. I wonder if Iʼm aromantic, or just traumatized. Expressing love is scary as fuck, especially when the act has been a weapon of mistrust. Romanticism seems like fun, then I see some of yall and Iʼm like "dam that sucks" Am I a realist who has emotionally matured? Or cynical off what I have emotionally endured? I let them convince me that I didnt know what love was, cluing me into life for the vulnerable amongst us. I was on my Deborah Cox fully unwilling to discuss; Iʼd sent my heart miles away before, why would i do it more than once? But we donʼt do as we say, no, we do as we please. My heart signed up for this pain. My mind must have a disease. We donʼt do as we say. No, we do as we please, and I would do it again to get you closer to me. I wonder...