Deadened Lyrics

I know that it is dark, love
I know that it's hard to push ahead
You might seem faint now
But i know you'll shine with full force one day
It's not as if I've killed you
It's not as if you've died
I might have fed you cancer
but nothing you can't hide!
I wish for progress
I wish for growth
For you to prosper and show some backbone
Wish you a circlet
Wish you a throne
For you to strengthen
Stand on your own
I know I brought the plague, love
I know that I chose side
I'd make amends but it would cost
Too much merely for the ride
Poor excuse, although a fact
You knew from the start it was all an act
I haven't always lacked concern
A simple choice to have it burned...
But a door that leads to nowhere
A gun without a cause
A letter lacking address
Or like anger without pause...
I find you distancing yourself
I find you mean
A cutting sharp infection
So hopelessly unclean!
She stares with dead eyes
Quietened, insane
Her cancer's clear though
Time and time again
I need some help here
She's lost control
A raving black disease inside her soul
Her tongue is spiteful but means no ill
It's this wretched cancer that slowly kills.