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The mourners bow their heads
But I am not a part
Of their flow in the evening rain
Despite how hard I try
I'm left just to be
Lonely and afraid

My sober thoughts are there
I have kept them away,
A silence through the glass
It's colder when you're here
Your vanity makes me bleed
Delusions never pass

Your silence helps me pull away
I push you further from my thoughts
You may be pleased with how I feel
But a friend is all I sought
The days just blend into a whole,
The pale skies just seem to grow
I have so much to give,
More than you'll ever know

My useless pulse is through
My hope is given away,
My trust has been misplaced
As I struggle through the haze
If you simply saw my face
I'd find a way to stay

We didn't speak at all
Of how we felt,
It doesn't matter now
And so you're gone
No one seems to want
Me to be around

Losing myself
In nowhere,
Away from your eyes
But what do you care
If I'm not here
Just tell me why