Self Medicated Lyrics

A cynic. I'm hopeless. I'm broken.
There is no light inside of me.
I'm tired. I'm restless. I'm lonesome.
But I can never sleep.

My mind plays games when I'm alone now.
You said the worst things to get inside my head.
Intoxication takes control now.
Self medication takes its grip.

I'm crawling on the floor.
Take deep breaths, your heart is racing.
There's clawing at the door.
Oh God, dont let 'em take me.

Now I have to find a way out.
I have to find my voice.
I'm entertaining thoughts
That are no good for me.

When I'm completely numb, a darkness takes me.
I turn into someone I hate completely.
It's me against the world.
Take cover, you can not fix me.
Just throw me to the wolves.
I'm a victim of self pity.

Now I have to find a way out.
I have to find my voice.
I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me.
Now I have to find a way back.
I have to make a choice.
I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me.

I've given up.
I'm in for a lifetime of second guessing everything that I've become.
My mind plays games when I'm alone.
Self medicated. Intoxication takes control.

Now I have to find my way out.
I have to find my voice.
These thoughts are no good for me.

Now I have to find a way out.
I have to find my voice.
I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me.
Now I have to find a way back.
I have to make a choice.
I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me.