Delusional to False Existence Lyrics

I am a ghost within these walls.
I am a being without hope.
Created by your mechanical lies,
Strap me down, welcome to the show.

Renovating my thoughts and memories,
This life isn’t real, only on a TV screen.
I want to believe that I’m safe and secure,
But why is it when I sleep, everything fades to green?
I want the answer, I want the truth.
I want to know the darkness behind these lies.
So why?
Can’t I find myself?
When will I be safe?

This world is nothing but a gun held to my head,
And I am the bullet inside my skull.
It doesn’t matter if I’m already dead,
But why the fuck can’t I accept happiness?

Am I even real?

I’m not.

When the fuck did I let myself cease to exist,
In a false sense of reality.
If this is real, I want to find my way out.
Because this is hell, not a fucking city.

Suicide is just an escape from our minds,
And we are blind. (x2)

Just because I’m faded in reality,
Doesn’t mean that I’m any less human.
I wish that I felt real,
So I could feel my soul,
Leaving my lifeless corpse.
God, if you’re out there,
Give me a sign.
I want to be alive,
Feel alive,
Know this is real.

Pull the trigger,
Escape this,
Dreams of life,
Dance in grey.