Heiress to Melancholia Lyrics

He read in me things still unwritten
The rest he had learned in my diary
In the end, what did it change ?
I have grown older, darker, and the blood speaks

All my certainties have faltered
I have become estranged from myself
All that time, I have been justifying
A sickly condition I was not aware of

CHORUS:
Have I ever had free will ?
Have I only made my choices In the grip of a mere
Body and mind disorder ?
Will those things I hate save me ?
Will the ones I love kill me ?
Will I never know again
That bliss called ignorance

I could have left without knowing
But man’s science decreed otherwise
In the end, where is my truth ?
I feel lost, adrift, and the scars weep
All that I took for convictions

May have been inspired by bile
What is left when you realize
Your mind has been driven by drugs

I am so helpless against myself
That I try to hide from my own eyes
And no use looking for sympathy
When you are consumed from the inside
Drugs give the quiet shades of sanity
To the defences in my head
I know the pills will never heal me
But I have been prescribed life