V. Bask in the Lingering Lyrics

And now we've come to the crux
The apex and the even horizon
But I have not some epic thesis
This more a rambling monologue
The an illuminating treatise
What is there to cull or gather
From this deranged utterance?
I want to say "since we are here,
Might as well enjoy the ride."
But find this trite and heartless
For many fail and end their lives

Still I cannot escape this fact
Survival and conatus reign
After all is said at days end
Mother nature, even i,
Go ever forth like it or not.
Understand it or not
Inertia is a mighty force

Perhaps our bane is asking why
And this is solely human
Disaffected in knowing how
We always beg the question
To what avail? to what avail?
Lower life has not this plague
That blessed curse unique to us
But ought we to suppress it
Shouldn't we instead engage?

It is with grief that I report
My still and ever present void
I do not know why I am alive
The urgency of my tortured soul
Does not necessitate an answer

But reason and humility
Encourage me to linger
So on I go, forever striving
To make sense of my environment,
And even enjoy it.