Inert Gas Asphyxiator Lyrics

As I have chosen
Long before they had a say
Long before they could have
Chosen to pray for me
I will huff and wheeze
No one to please
Except for my sick fantasy
Of them looking up to me
Of them gazing upon me

My family
I will leave them to dismay
As they will suffer a similar fate
As they will live in the shadow of my disgrace

I regret these final moments
But with weakening cognizance
And sentience fading
I struggle to turn the key
I grasp onto my knees
As I huff and wheeze
I ask for my family to forgive me
And for God to show me mercy

Burned
I grasp, my lungs are
Quickly collapsing under the
Pressure of my deceit

I bow down and beg to Christ
To not let my loved ones pursue me
To follow down the same path as me
For being the one crippled with the disease
Have chosen to abandon my family
A selfish cry for attention
That could be punished eternally
I forgive