Constellation (feat. Lil Orionis) Lyrics

perpetually

falling into a trip of my own design
losing myself inside my mind
a new cult, i offer up my soul

guilted to change my personal perspective
no one will listen, i must give you all my last confession
i'm so sick of being here
these words mean nothing as i stare at myself with fear

this beautiful life, lord i beg and plea
an offer to you, if you can't save me
i'm ashamed, i'm sorry
please just save your sorrow for my lifeless body

at the end lies the endless light
will i never be apart of this life
hopefully i'll be a king to one
otherwise i'll carve my name into the sun

i'll draw apart the times i ran away from you,
but it's no use i'm showing signs of becoming used
the cold fingers linger with the taste of forcing you
i'm hurt dubiously showing the world the truth
i'll draw apart the times i ran away from you
i did bad things no one but me knows the truth
i'm sorry mom you know i tried to hide it
but here we are, everyone can see inside it

(i'll trade the stars to exchange my life for yours
smiling at me, delusionally
hiding it all inside my head)

i'm not innocent, this much i've sought
the only way i'll be happy is if someone helps me rot
i try to piece together the lines i tore apart
but there's no hope, i'll have to cross the line, the inevitable freedom
i'm so tired of waking up

when i come to an end, hopefully you'll hear my songs,
and understand this wasn't a mistake.
i've been in agony for years
writing it here, begging to be heard.

i've become a shell
someone who lost perception of what's real,
you let me get this way.
but no one would've guessed better because i know,
i just wanted a taste

formerly pressed by my own vision of god,
here i lay waste to the idea i sought.
i'm no longer me, please use me
until i cannot breathe

chaotic misery

the absence of our demeanor
i'm trapped with a new light
can you just let me live?