Relinquished Opportunity (feat. Evan Van Dyne of Resuscitate) Lyrics

understanding opulence
an advantage built on disaster itself
i've come to terms with myself
acting upon change
reacting to the breathing of the earth

thinking back
relapse, collapse
i'm not burning down to ash
pleasure in the eyes of this hindrance
leave this, believe us
burning down the ash
i must confess, endless bliss
collusion's burnt down in ash of us
ponder me
hold the thoughts
i want to become ash, ive become obsessed with this

staring at the wall of flames
i know by now the past has called my name
have i found a way to walk backwards without shame
or is this what it feels like to hold onto nightmares
or is this what it feels like to hold onto nightmares

(holding onto to all my fears)

not the kind of creature i thought i'd become
but i guess this isn't a hardwood floor either
looks like i'll just succumb to the ether
tell me more lies like this to help me bind my life for the keepers

blistering conversation, the noise makes me feel pain
like nails to a chalkboard, i'm repulsed by the thought of change
addictive personalities around me
begging me to be whole again

this time i promise i won't let you go
knowing everything around me will never be my home
don't leave me alone,
i fear abandonment, the only love the world can show
thrusting deep inside my mind
vulgar visions offer time
i'm disgusted realize, operating with no disguise
disrespectfully bastardized, my brother left me here to die
gouge out my eyes

walking around with intent in my head
every single thing i write
makes people think i crave death
come follow me i'll show you
that we can't walk together without burying our filthy shame