Hyperthymesia (feat. Kyle Williams of Babirusa) Lyrics

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i often find myself in the brisk feeling of remorse
wondering if i'm the only one guilty enough to feel this
genuinely questioning my sanity as i stare at the ceiling i'm losing it or maybe i was lost to begin with.

not really sure who i am anymore
the only thing i really know is these thoughts i can't ignore
benign beings blissfully sleeping breathing nevermore after complaining about the sunrise
i don't know what i'd even do if i felt alive
maybe slip back into the mindset i keep trying to disguise

i'm sick of every single bad decision that i make
it's like i know the mirror is dirty yet i divulge

in the disgusting taste
wondering what it'd be like to just stare at your eyes
an emptiness
but yet emotional
the thought remains a prize

something i hold dear to me
the ground shakes when i walk
but only because i lose my breath and i'm never able to hear myself talk

hearing it over and over again
seeing older versions of myself
do people really think that we grow up to be the future
or is it all forgotten hope
i don't think i know

for once i'd like to be able to feel my skin
and not be reminded that i sin
for once i'd like to be awake
and not remind myself that i yearn for the death i embrace.

jump back into the lake
let's drown together
call it chance
hold my hand
i promise this is all part of the plan
to die together look me in the eyes and think of something better
you're my best friend
i love you to death

i know it doesn't seem like it
but the only reason i'm like this
is because my mind won't ever let me forget