Ego Death Lyrics

white lights are surrounding me, i can't breathe
the thought of this keeps me from sleep
walking around in circles the taste of this strip taints my sight I'm blinded
alone empty and weak, the clocks bleed
everything around me is pink

i can't believe my feet keep walking towards the end of the street
the road blisters and boils everywhere, it's losing me, i'm full of sorrow, no speech

we forget the point in which we can return
i watch as the world continues to burn

leave me here with my sins,
an option of pure bliss
crept into my skin
almost out
the shine can't keep withering thin

flowers wilt in non stop sunlight
time passes, give meaning to my life

i am a demon, adulterated heathen
oblivious deceiver cultivated by believing
question my desire obligated by the fire
hold that thought, the turning begins to transpire

take a deep breath, lost my mind
trickle down like water, i have nothing left to find
perverse, contort, justify your own court

take a deep breath
watch the wind
collect your thoughts, hold them deep within

erase everything i've built
knock down my faith
remorse fills my lungs with guilt
i feel my skin, tearing it off is my favorite sin

truly sought out to be more than light
life drains us, leaves us here to die
it's the balance
collisions in my head
i beg to be abandoned

utmost divinity, the paper brings respect
we're nothing but a disgusting hole
waste away with no regrets,
your desire means nothing to the fire

the road breaks apart again
a drought is caused inside my mind
genuinely cannot see with open eyes
lost in the woods, stumble upon guilt

(i want to be free)
i must reflect
i'm just upset
cannot accept
that i'm depressed

the sky is lined with a version of black eyes
belligerent controlling, bastardized intent
breathing bliss, born into this

you never let me live it down
i swore to you i'd wear this crown,
hearing every single moment of regret i've lived up until now, broadcasted live and burnt into my skin

i'm a living monument of everything you hate
don't try to hide your feelings
i'll die before i walk back into the dirt
you eat away at my skin from the inside out

i'm in pain because of everything i've dealt with
these words echo through me like material delusion in the woodwork
i try to hide the emotional distress
but i'm diseased, this life isn't for me

everything seems like it's being brought to life
the mark of forbidden intelligence, no single disguise
all of your lies swarm to me like flies, unholy divinity
the oppression built upon disrespectful desire
justify the ways i've been abused, i see through everything
even if i'm confused, the light blisters
my peaking has only just begun

double take, the ground shakes
losing perception looking back, yearn for more
counting the seconds as the sound of the ticking beckons
opportunity blessing my deception
mortal disposition, writing it all here
religious diffusion

looking at my reflection, am i infected
with everything you left
i am not going to lie hoping to never again open my eyes
at one point I have to admit that i was being torn apart limb from limb

everything that i've learned
i'll take it with me to my grave
this is only just the beginning
a newfound reason to preach about every feeling i've ever faked
a newfound reason to continue this simulated game

i haven't lost myself, or have i
and i'm just making excuses
confusingly grabbing at my head as i shake it,
i can't shake this empty feeling
why do i regret so much
why do i regret so much

i am confused
i'm really sorry
i'm sorry for being me
i can't believe you'd really leave
i'm sorry for being me
this ego
it must end