Retrospective Nightmare II Lyrics

Have I become a monster? Have I become evil? Somehow I am able to disguise myself... not only in front of others, but in front of myself as well. What have I become!? Do I feel because I relate or do I relate because I feel? I've become the ghost of the ghost of myself. Horrible visions and hallucinations will cloud my mind... I am unsure if they are even horrible, but instead are distant perceptions only attainable by myself... No one ever sees what I see...