How Will I Laugh Tomorrow (heavy emotion version) Lyrics

Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down (Crumbling down)
I cry for help but no one's around
Silently screaming as I bang my head against the wall (Against the wall)
It seems like no one cares at all

Always an emotion, but how can I explain; how can I explain?
Kind of like the scent of a rose, with words I can't explain, the same with my pain
Caught up in emotion, goes over my head; (Goes over my head)
Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death, am I living or am I...

The clock keeps ticking, but nothing else seems to change (Seems to change)
Problems never solved, just rearranged
And then I think about all the times that I've had (That I've had)
Some were good...

I search for personality. I look for things I couldn't see
Peace and love flash through my mind but - pain and hate is all I ever would find
Find no hope in nothing new and I never ever had a dream come true
Lies and hate and agony; through my eyes that's all I see

If I'm gonna cry, will you wipe away my tears?
And if I'm gonna die, Lord please take away my fear
Before I drown in sorrow, Well I just want to say;
How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today

Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today

You think something's funny...
If you wanna laugh... why don't you laugh at this?

So when I look outside my room
I see the world, but not the reason
What is done to me is not fair
You call it fair I call it treason
But I know not what to do
Give me a sign I'll take whatever
But if you want me here I am
Ain't gonna die forever

And I tried to hold ya
But you just turned away
And I tried to tell ya
But not a word I say
I cried out so loudly
But you just covered your ears
I gave you all the signs
But you ignored my tears

So if you want me here I am
I sit here waiting for your decision
But my body fights my mind
I headed straight for a collision
So am I getting near or am I still
Looking in all the wrong places
But the only thing that seems to change
Are the looks on the faces...
And I try to hold ya
And I try to tell ya
And I gotta...

And I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta
Gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta

How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)
How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)
How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)
How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)

When I can't even smile
Can't even smile
I can't even smile today
When I can't even smile
Can't even smile
I can't even – I can't even smile today
Smile today
But I can't even smile
How will I laugh tomorrow?

Doesn't anyone...It seems like no one cares at all
Doesn't anyone even care at all
It seems like no one cares at all
Doesn't anyone even care at all
It seems like no one cares at all
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
When I can't even smile today

Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today