I Tried Dying Once Lyrics

I'm blind to my surroundings
Body growing cold there is little life remaining
Pill bottles emptied high on the infliction
Blood stained clothing fuckups unforgiven
Pathetic life I'm living
Disgrace me
All the choices I've made were mistakes
So long since I've felt it any joy at all
Pain I know so well
My only friend
Misguided living dead
A bitter walking corpse
Put on a face just to please you
To make everything alright
Try to sleep through all of my days
And drink away every night
Pushed away all those who cared for me
Wanted to crawl in a hole to die
My dreams of beating the life from you
Are growing stronger each breath I take
Felt the knife twisting in my back
Gladly you watch me pass
A corpse to wither and rot away
Leave behind stains that just can't be cleaned
Kept alive by the sound of your beating heart
I know how it feels to lose it all
My head in my hands and I'm dying
A pitiful fuck you let me
The scars on your wrist tell of me
My love I long to join you
A moment to failure
Feeling I had untrue
I tried dying once
The promise I made to you