Bitter Lyrics

@ How could I know what it means to be alive?
　What's crouching behind this innocence, a daydream of the childhood that passed by

　I do not understand how you can smile
　If loving myself is the answer, you know I will never be redeemed

　What should've I done, when it's how everything's supposed to be?
　That someone cries
　That someone dies, but that someone always wants to live

　I do not understand how you can smile
　If closing my eyes is the answer, you know I will never be redeemed

경직된 목소리로 이야기하는 이상향
(A utopia that is being talked about with a stiffened voice)
스스로를 경멸하는 박애주의자의 모순
(The paradox of a philanthropist who despises himself)
사실은 이미 싹이 튼 인간혐오, 애처로운 자기변호
(In fact, misanthropy sprouted already, a pathetic self-justification)
하지만 이렇게라도 하지 않으면 살아있는 것을 견딜 수 없는걸
(But I cannot bear being alive, if I don't do this at least)

But why is it always so bitter?
사랑하고 싶은 만큼 더해지는 경멸
(Contempt that adds up as much as you want to love)

When life is what brings us to death
희망한 만큼 깊어지는 절망
(The more you hope, the deeper the despair)

# What should I do, when all the hopes in life are turning into despair?
　It's nobody else's pain but mine
　I rot alone

　I started not to care anymore, now there's no reason to cry
　No reason to laugh, no reason to live
　Anyways, no one will ever be redeemed

내게 그 빛을 증명해줘
(Prove me that light)
이 부폐한 삶과 고통을 되낳는 이 존재에 어떤 가치가 있다는걸
(That there is some value to this rotten life and the existence that repeatedly gives birth to misery)
내게 보여줘
(Show me)

내게 그 빛을 증명해줘
(Prove me that light)

사랑하고 싶지만
(I want to love, but)

우리는 마주보는 거울, 열매를 맺지 못하는 애증의 연속성
(We are mirrors facing each other, the continuity of love and hatred that cannot bear fruit)

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